Damn shit is crazy; when everything is just going good something goes wrong. My mind is in all different situations. I’m so stressed the fuck out. I feel so hurt inside. I just don’t know what to do. All I do is cry. Sometimes I ask god why me, why my family? I have no one to go to, no one to turn to. I hold so much inside, I feel as if no one understands me, which makes me just want to give up on a lot of things. I hate being in situations like the one that I’m in now. I feel as if there’s not much that I can do and I wish there was something that I can do to help certain situations. Everything is falling apart. I’m so depressed I don’t feel like being bothered, because inside I’m in so much pain. I may look like I’m happy on the outside, but if you look close inside you’ll see that my heart is broken into many pieces that can’t be put back together, until the situation that I’m in gets better. A couple of days ago on 8/6/11 something’s went wrong with one of my family members. I was shocked, speechless and hurt. I just want things to go back to the way they were and I don’t know if that’s going to happen and that is what scares me the most. I have faith so all I can do is hope that things get better. I’m here for you no matter what. We’re family and you mean so much to me... I LOVE YOU BRO!
You are an incredible person that has been through so much in your young life. Of course you are going to have moments of depression. Don't always conceal it by being sunny and happy. All of us here in the program are here for you even if it's just to read your entries. You are so special and I hope you know that!
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