Wednesday, August 10, 2011

IN A TOUGH SITUATOIN AND IT'S HURTING ME INSIDE!

Damn shit is crazy; when everything is just going good something goes wrong. My mind is in all different situations. I’m so stressed the fuck out. I feel so hurt inside. I just don’t know what to do. All I do is cry. Sometimes I ask god why me, why my family? I have no one to go to, no one to turn to. I hold so much inside, I feel as if no one understands me, which makes me just want to give up on a lot of things. I hate being in situations like the one that I’m in now. I feel as if there’s not much that I can do and I wish there was something that I can do to help certain situations. Everything is falling apart. I’m so depressed I don’t feel like being bothered, because inside I’m in so much pain. I may look like I’m happy on the outside, but if you look close inside you’ll see that my heart is broken into many pieces that can’t be put back together, until the situation that I’m in gets better. A couple of days ago on 8/6/11 something’s went wrong with one of my family members. I was shocked, speechless and hurt. I just want things to go back to the way they were and I don’t know if that’s going to happen and that is what scares me the most. I have faith so all I can do is hope that things get better. I’m here for you no matter what. We’re family and you mean so much to me...    I LOVE YOU BRO!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

MY FEELINGS TOWARDS MY MOTHER...

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      Mom Dukes you mean so much to me and I’m so thankful that you’re in my life. I appreciate your love and all your sacrifice, without you by my side I never could have survived, I wouldn’t be the young lady standing here before your eyes. You taught me strength and you gave me guidance, when ever faith was lost you were there to find it and all because a mothers love is unconditional. Mami with all my heart and all my soul I wanna let you know that I thank you, I love you and I will never place anyone above you. You have given me life and I just want you to know that you’re the reason why I’m here today. I will never let you go or everything we share because nothing can compare. I thank you is what I’m saying. See I’ve been blessed to be raised by a woman so strong, cause even when I did things wrong you would show me just the way that I should carry on. You kept me safe and you protected me, and anytime that I was in need of something you would give me your very last. Mama you’re the queen of my heart and jus know that loving you is like food to my soul. It fills me up just thinking about you. I know that over the years you watched me grow up, and you only want the best for me. But you weren’t just my mother over the past 17 years, you’ve been also my Father and my best friend so I thank you for that. You’ve been through so much with your three beautiful kids, but you always kept your head held up high…   I Love You Mami! XOXO <3